Hospital Birthday

We are back in the hospital after being released yesterday. We left around 2:30 yesterday and Jaylie got fever again around 7 last night. So we stayed the night in the hospital again. Yesterday the doctor said there was a good chance (40%) she would get fever again but said we could go home as long as we didn't mind coming back if her fever came back. She had been fever free for over 24 hours so we thought for sure she would be fine. But 4 hours after we got home we headed back:) Crazy timing, we probably should have just stayed but it's ok. It was nice getting out of here for a few hours:)

Luckily she doesn't have an infection or anything. Her fever is just a neutropenic fever, just from
her being neutropenic - counts being low. We just have to wait it out here until her counts go up more. She is not feeling well at all and doesn't want to eat or drink. She has lots of mouth sores that hurt her really bad so it's tough to get her to take her meds or eat and drink. She even got some sores on the outside of her mouth this time which she has never had. She just wants to lay down and watch tv. She doesn't want me to touch her or talk to her much, so I've just been letting her do her thing so I don't bother her and make her mad. I just went and snuggled her and she was fine with it and actually gave me eskimo and butterfly kisses. I loved it! If its her idea to interact with me then shes fine:) It's so sad when she feels so yucky because she doesn't act like herself.

Although my birthday was crazy with being in here, going home, coming back and not having Jaylie feel too good, it was a great one that I won't ever forget. I'm still sad about being 30 now, but I know this year is going to be great. I felt so special yesterday and am thankful for all the texts, emails, messages, gifts, and flowers I received. It really made my day! My parents brought Breklyn and Crew up yesterday along with some yummy Chuy's (my fav Mexican restaurant) for lunch. It was great! Then when we got home yesterday there were some birthday surprises on our porch, it was awesome! Then my mom was so kind to take Jaylie back to the hospital so Kip could take me out to dinner. I felt guilty not being with her but my mom said she was fine with her and was happy. It was nice having some time alone with Kip, it had been a while. After that we just came up to the hospital to be with Jaylie. Kip and my mom left and J and I went to bed. It was a great day. I loved being able to spend it with Jaylie and loved being able to see the two little kids, I miss them soooo much when I don't see them all day. I hate it. Thank you to everyone for making me feel so special on my 30th! Definitely was not the way I had planned for my birthday to go, but it was awesome and I couldn't have asked for a better day - maybe except her getting fever again :-) I look back at the last year of my life and it was definitely the hardest year I've ever had but also was the year with the most blessings I've ever had. We have been so blessed in so many ways throughout this journey with Jaylie. I have definitely grown closer to my Heavenly Father this past year and have felt Him more in my life. I have grown and learned soo much too. I always have treasured my family and my cute kiddos but I do so more now. I've learned to live in the moment and just enjoy life with those I love. I've learned patience, love, hope and compassion. Everyone says your 30's are your best years, I hope that's the case and I hope they go by slower than my 20's did :-) Here's to being 30!!

 Beautiful flowers I found on the front porch. Thank you!!